Halloween 2013

I was so excited to take Jaxxi trick or treating this year I thought she would love it since she's older... Well it was not so fun! Hopefully next year will be better! Cayson enjoyed his first Halloween but he's so happy I knew he would!

She was a mean lion!!

This was the only picture of her being sweet! It was a really rough year!

She wasn't in the mood for pictures!

These two are bestest buds!

And she was done! She had her self a little fit in someones yard!

Cayson was a cute little fox :)

Another Halloween in the books. It really was fun, I just wish Jaxxi wasn't as tired as she was and could have enjoyed it more.

Mason Pumpkin Patch

A couple of weekends ago we went to a small pumpkin patch in Mason, OK. It wasn't planned, and Jaxxi had been playing all day so she's looking kinda rough :)

She thought the Pumpkins were neat!

This was the best I picture I got of the two of them.

We didn't actually get to do the corn maze... But hey we got a picture :)

My little pumpkin :)

Hay Jump

We met up with our older cousins and Katy helped Jaxxi through the junior maze.

Jaxxi learning how to milk a cow!

She was scared at first but then she realized it wouldn't bite. :)

They had these balls to do races on! They had a blast!

My Nephew Derrick helping baby girl jump really fast!

We got spend about an hour having fun and it was perfect fall weather! I can't get enough

Cayson's First hair cut!

I haven't posted anything since you were 4 months old! Didn't mean for that to happen! On your 8th month birthday you got your very first hair cut!

this was your hair before :)

After! you look so handsome with your new hair!

Jenn did such a good job!

Your asking her what she did to you :)

Cayson 4 months

I didn't get his 4 month pictures done until 2 weeks before he turned 5 months but better late than never! ;)

At your 4 month well baby you were

14 lbs

23 1/2 inches

head 16 1/4



You are so happy all the time! Since we got your formula all straightened out you only fuss when it's time to eat!

We did try some rice cereal out of a spoon. you did pretty well. I'm not going to get real serious until you are six months old.


You are bringing your hands to your mouth constantly! You can take your bink out and put it back in.

You like to snuggle on the dog to the right of the above picture.

You sleep from about 8:30 p.m. to 5:30-6:30 just long enough to drink a bottle then you fall right back asleep till about 8:30.



this picture cracks me up! you are doing your new squeak thing! you love to squeak and yell. It's so funny! You are most talkative in the mornings.

You have lost a lot of hair! And we have an old man hair style situation happening :)

You love your sister and she loves you! She tries to help momma take care of you. She tells me when your crying and tries to help feed you.


This picture pretty much sums you up baby boy. You have the best smile that lights up your whole face. We love you sooo much!!

Preston Wiley Craig

Like the rest of my sister pregnancy Preston arrival wasn't without hardship! We found out my sister had developed an illness called acute fatty liver in pregnancy, it's very serious and we are very thankful we didn't lose her and Preston. She still has a long road a head of her but every day seems to get a little better.

A few minutes old!

first pic of the family of three

Even though Kass is smiling she was very sick and didn't know it. First pic of mom and baby!

I will post more cuteness soon just wanted to get this on the blog. My sister still needs lots of prayers. We want her home enjoying her new bundle of joy!

Sunday Funday on the lake :)

A couple of Sundays ago we met up with the Allen crew and had a fun day on the lake :)

Love these cousins

they are great models :)

Sawyer wasn't really into taking pictures but at least he's looking :)

Jaxxi wasn't really into swimming in the middle of the lake even with daddy :)

Shane on the tube

Bree and Jaxxi watching him deciding if they will get on that thing :)

We got a little fishing in too.

She didn't like swimming in the big middle of the lake but she didn't mind holding the door open for us :)

but she LOVED the swim beach b/c she could touch!

I loved watching her play and explore :)

We had to cut our day a little short b/c it started storming on us. It's been one crazy July here in Oklahoma lots of rain and cooler temps. I'm not complaining though I hate the heat!

Right Where I Am 4 yrs. 4 months 9 days

I decided to participate in a project called Right Where I Am where baby-loss parents are asked to write about where they were in their grief. And it also is about how "wherever you are, it is right". We were asked to only talk about the present moment in our grief, not yesterday, or tomorrow, but how we were feeling today. We were instructed to title the piece with Right Where I Am: followed by the time since our child died.

First off I can't believe it's been over 4 yrs since I got kiss his face. Today I'm feeling a little reflective. Today is the day that would have Jaxxon due date. Fourth of July has been hard ever since that first year. We were looking forward to our last holiday as a family of two and we would be welcoming our baby boy, maybe even before that July 4th. So every year as I watch the fireworks, it reminds me of my sweet baby boy. My sister is 29 weeks pregnant and had a little scare last weekend. I went to the same hospital that Jaxxon was born at with her. They admitted her over night and has we were going to her L&D room we passed a door with a white lily flower picture on it. My heart immediately restricted. I wanted to knock on the door and give that mother a great big hug, and cry with her. Any time I hear of someone going through the same thing we did over four years ago. My heart just breaks, I know what a long uphill battle it is just to get up some mornings. Most days it seems like a dream. I hate that people were right when they say time heals all. I wouldn't say it's something that can be healed, but I can say that you can go on and actually "live" and not just get by everyday. After 4 years and two kids the pain is so much different. I just wish that he could be here to play with his sister and brother. I still often wonder who he would be. So where I am in my grief it's different everyday, but today I'm missing my sweet Jaxxon so much. And can't wait till I can hug and tell him how much I love him face to face.