Lately

It's been way busy for the Allen's the last little bit I feel like I haven't done this much for months! We've had a house warming party, I helped with a halloween party, help my brother move,family pictures, a trip to Woodward, helping my Sis with some wedding stuff, a trip to Braggs to see my grandparents! I'm tired thinking of it all. I don't see it slowing down until after the first of the year either!

But for the most part it's all been with family and I love being around people I love. :)

Halloween is almost over and it's the first year in about 15 I didn't make it to any haunted houses or do anything really festive. We didn't even carve pumpkins! The holidays are just tough sometimes, even after almost two years. I just hope by next Halloween we will have a little trick or treater to tote around! :)


Picture from trystans Halloween party!




Hip hop princess peach:)




Fear factor game!




More fear factor



My Sis kass after cake testing.





My sweetie on the way to Braggs this morning!

I hope everyone has a blast this Halloween!


Ashley

A Woodward Weekend in Pictures!

Ashley

Anniversary weekend!

I LOVE fall and one of my favorite things to do is go to the pumpkin patch. We normally don't go this early in the season but since we had the opportunity so we took and I'm so glad we did b/c we got really good pumpkins :)

This is Shane's battle wound for digging for the perfect one. What kind of day would it be if Shane didn't get hurt right?!? :D

Shane with his ginormous pumpkin that thing weighed in at 30 lbs!


Shane digging for me just the right one!

He's thrilled to have his picture made!

This is my perfect pumpkin! I can't wait to carve these puppies up! (ok may I can't wait for Shane to carve them!)

After the pumpkin patch we head to the Tulsa State Fair. We got there about 4 and walked around til almost 11 my feet were not happy with me by the end of the day!

We found out that my cousins were also at the fair and met up with them. This is my cousin Madison showing more than half the guys in front of her up, she did 9 pull ups the hard way, she's only 6! We are all so proud of her! She just got up there and went to town:)

We were also surprised that American Idol alum Katherine Mcphee was there. So set down and rested for a few and watched her free concert!

Me and my Love at the concert.

I had the best weekend! It was so nice just to spend the day with my honey!



On Monday I went to Strothers to watch our cousin Trystan play Basketball. I love watching this sport so I was really excited when Lacy called to invite me to the game. They lost but they were so cute at losing :)

Trystan is number 22! He told us he doesn't want us to yell for him at his next game! Ha!

5 years a day late.

Yesterday I was married to my hunky husband Shane for five years! Sometimes it feels like we have been together forever and other times I can't believe it's been 5 years. It's amazing how life can change in such a short amount of time. Our family still doesn't look like we were hoping it would when we said "I do", but it looks exactly how God knew it would and we just have to trust that he has plan for us. I have learned a lot as a wife, and we have both done A LOT of growing up. I'm trying to be less selfish and giving. but over all I think we've grown into each other nicely. :) Marriage definitely looks a lot different then I thought it would on Oct. 1, 2005. I won't say I love every minute of it but I at least like it. :) the last five years I have dealt with the hardest things in my life. I'm so thankful that I have Shane right beside me, loving me and being the voice of reason to all my crazy! I love you babe and here's to many more years, With a lot more laughter and A LOT less tears! Oh yea and you staying away from the stupid brush pile!!!!

The Hardest Part

I was watching Private Practice last night, yes a mind numbing drama, but last night it was about a couple who had lost a baby at 5 months b/c the husband accidentally left the baby in the car. They were wanting to use a surrogate who had lost a baby the same way. Addison, a doctor on the show, was having a hard time letting these people try again when they had lost a baby and she wasn't sure if they had grieved for the loss of their son max. Well as the show progresses Addison sets down with the mother and asks her why she would want to have another child with her husband after he forgot their infant son in the car. this is what the mother said something to this effect.

" I couldn't look at my husband for a long time, then I couldn't look at me. I'm broken. I'm not the same woman I was before. I'm not the same woman who would decorate a nursery with four months left in my pregnancy, who would buy baby clothes in bigger sizes for them to grow into, I'm not the same woman who would plan for their future. But I have all this love to give and no where to put it."

and then I cried like I haven't cried in long time. While although I have said something close to that. For the last year and 7 months I have been trying pin point the hardest part. Yes the loss of a future, the loss of memories, the loss of the relationship is hard. but the hardest part is having nowhere to put the love. I will always love him unconditionally and will always have hole where he stole my heart.

Happy Belated Birthday!

Yesterday was Shane 27th Birthday! I can not believe another year has gone by! We traveled to Woodward to spend the day with the Woodward crew :)

Bree Making her Nane his pink birthday cake :)

I think this pic is so cute of my two boys :)

Yesterday was a lot of fun. Spending time with the family. It was a rough day for me b/c I just kept thinking we are always going to be minus one... I wish with all my might that Shane could have celebrated his birthday with our little toddler hanging off his hip. I was on the verge of tears several times yesterday. I would think it would get easier and in a lot of ways it has. The sadness still creeps in. Every year that passes each year we both get older just feels like our dream of having our own little family slips through our fingers more and more.

Happy Birthday Babes... I thankful to be growing older with you! But just a little FYI I'm still in my mid 20's not the late 20's as my hottie of a husband just entered:)!

After... So far

Guest bath!





Another view!




Guest room... Not finished





Living room not finished!



Kitchen mostly done!

Ashley