another year that come and gone...

Well 2010 has came and went. I remember on New Years Eve thinking this year would be a better year for us. In some ways it has and some ways nothing has changed. I'm a little embarrassed to say that I pretty much let this year just go by. I'm giving myself a by I needed more time to heal more time to grieve. But next year I'm bound to determine myself to not just loaf around. I'm still going to grieve I don't think I will ever stop but it's time to quit letting it consume my life. I think it has a time and place and there will still be moments of sadness and weakness, but I'm vowing to make them more few and far between. I think as a baby loss mom you think the hurt is what makes you remember them, and the truth is it's our heart and our love that keeps there memory alive. This Christmas seemed harder than last year. I think I was still in shock or thought that we would just magically get pregnant, and this year I think I was finally realistic about our situation. I've been grieving that to. Not giving up, just letting myself believe that our plan may not be for me to carry our baby. So yes baby making and infertility were still at the forefront for 2010. There were some good things also.

January

We rang in the New Year at OKC with Andy and Lacy!

February

We Celebrated this little guys birth! 2/15/2010

Breeana turned 4


And we Celebrated Jaxxon's first birthday with Jesus! 2/26/2009

March
March was pretty uneventful so no pics or anything :(

April


We took our first trip to the zoo!

Got to celebrate Easter with my mom and all my brother and sisters!


May

We took Huck on his first lake trip Memorial day weekend! He wasn't a fan :)


June

We celebrated Jarrett's 2nd Birthday!

The Woodward gang came and stayed with us for a few days!

Seen twilight's eclipse twice! yes this is a highlight in my year! Ha!

Shane had his 2nd fathers day...


July

We officially got our house loan approved and work began...

and as a result Shane ended up with this beauty! LOL!

(side note: this same brush pile will cause him to have a pretty nasty burn two months later)

Huck turned one! 7/26/2010

August

Officially first time home owners... and it feels great!

Our new drive way!

My little Sister got engaged! Wedding set for 7/23/2011

September

was much like march I managed to put no pics on the blog

but Shane got his burn, PTL he recovered nicely and fastly

We celebrated Shanes 27th and my 26th Birthdays! another year older...


October

We had our house warming party with a ton of family and friends!

We celebrated our 5th year of marriage! Still going strong!

November

My mom's family pic first one in well... a LONG time!

Spent Thanksgiving week with the Woodward bunch!

Got up way to early again for black Friday shopping!

Had our annual tree trimming...


December

Went to Bree's first Christmas program! we were proud of how well she did for her solo!

We finally started the construction of our porch!

We were blessed to get to go to Angel Fire, NM on a ski trip!

the down side we were both sick as dogs for most of it!

We had a very blessed Christmas with our family this year!

Bring on all 2011 has to offer!