Monday, November 30, 2009

Hard Questions

I came across a blog where she was asking hard questions that would probably never be answered. I too have hard questions that I will most likely not be answered in this life time but decided to ask them anyway :)

1. Why can we not have a baby? Is God punishing us? What are we not learning that we should be?

2. Why would God let women get pregnant when their baby is going to end up dying before they get to live?

3. Why can people who are going to abuse or mistreat children keeping having one baby after the other, yet people who want to take care of baby can not?

4. Why does it seem like some people never have any real struggle with life? They get everything they want and barely have to work for it?

5. Why is that we only hear about God through main stream media if it's to say something bad about Christianity?

These are just a few of my questions. I sure I have more but this is enough for now! Maybe one day God will reveal a few of these for me.

Saturday, November 21, 2009


yes I'm going to write a post about a fictional love triangle that I get so worked up over. Ha!

So last night Mom, Melissa, Reyann, Heather and myself all went to watched New Moon. For all you people who know nothing about the twilight saga (I kind of feel for ya since your missing out!) It's not a real Moon it's the title of the second book in the series. I read all the books in about a two week time period and have since then read twilight twice. So it had been a while since I had been trapped in the fantasy world of Forks, Washington. Edward the vampire and Bella's love interest leaves town for her "best interest" and her best friend Jacob who is a werewolf steps in and kind of takes his place temporarily. While I was reading I just kept hoping for Edward to come back and didn't really feel the connection between her and Jacob. Last night watching the movie I felt she had more chemistry with Jacob and I liked the Bella she was with Jacob better then Bella she was with Edward. So I'm torn between who I think she should be with. What do you guys think? (even if you don't "think" about if you read the books who do you like her with better :))

Yes me a 25 year old is actually thinking about this! Hey for two hours last night I thought of nothing else then what I was watching and lately that's an accomplishment :) It's normally will we ever get pregnant if we ever get pregnant again will I ever have an baby that gets to live with us... So I was very grateful for the distraction.

I snapped this pic while it was still on the scream everyone was yelling b/c they were so excited!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Weekend in Woodward

We went to Woodward this past weekend we had a great time. We mostly just hung out and ate big surprise ;) Me and Shane did take pictures with Sarah Castor her website is you should check her out! We have seen the pics unedited and they are great it's going to be so hard to choose which ones we want!

Bree was stuck to us like glue... we loved every minute of it! She made me take a bath and wash all of her barbie dolls heads and then she washed mine three times with each kind of shampoo that was in the bathroom :)

We took Huck of course and he had a blast playing with Boomer I should have taken pics I just always forget.

Brother Bear would at least come to me. Last week they came to Paden and he acted like he didn't know me. I was really sad... He redeemed him self this weekend :) he was yelling for Nane a lot they had fun playing together.

On the way home Huck slept the entire time he hasn't played that hard in his life! all 14 weeks of it ;)

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Long days and randomness :)

The time change makes the days feel like they drag on for ever! This week feels like it's been a month long and we're only half way through it!

Halloween came and went for another year. I can't say I'm sad about it. Don't get me wrong it's still one of my favorite times of year. It's just that all the little Halloween onzies and cute pj's were the first things we bought for our baby we didn't know at the time would be Jaxxon. I can't believe it's been a year already that my life was turned upside down, first in the best way possible then turned upside down b/c of the worst thing possible... I imagine this whole season will be hard to get through b/c the holidays coming up are suppose to be about family and a huge part of mine is missing. I remember thinking I will never have to be sad about not having my own child trick or treating but God had other plans. I will have to muddle through Thanksgiving and Christmas the same way but I have already been praying that God would give me extra strength :)

On Monday I took Huck to get his rabies shots and am pleased to say that he did really well didn't even effect him. We have the bad shots again a week from Monday so I'm sure he'll be sick again. Tuesday we went to our first basketball game in Paden. Boys and Girls both won! Today I took Huck to get his first hair cut and well lets just say they did not do the best job! I cried when I got to my car b/c they cut off all his puppy hair!

This weekend we will head to Woodward to take Pics with Sarah from! I'm so excited we haven't taken pics like this since our engagement pics 4 years ago so I say it's time. we kept putting it off in hopes that we would have a little one to put with the two of us, but in reality that may never happen so I just decided it was something I wanted to do! So of course I'll show them to yall as soon as I get them.

Told you a bunch of randomness but I wanted to start keeping up with this better :)