Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Home at last

Well needless to say it's been a tough two weeks. I have only gotten through it because of the strength of my heavenly father, and the love of family and friends. We have been overwhelmed by the love and support of everyone. I can not say thanks enough. We know how loved we are through this. Me and Shane have learned a lot about each other and I couldn't ask for a better partner than my husband. I wish it wouldn't have taken something this tragic for me to see how truly Lucky I am to have the husband that I have. Know that God is steadfast and faithful. When all you have is him it's very easy to see and feel him. We serve a mighty God who is the lover of my soul. I can't say how much I have had to lean on him. When you seek his face he will find you.
I also want to thank Jaxxon's Poppy for doing such a great job at his service. He would look up and admire you so much. I'm sorry we have to miss out on watching him learn from you.

Now about my beautiful baby boy. He was born at 7:33 A.M. weighing in at 12 oz. and 10.25 inches long. He had his momma's nose and everything else was like his daddy's. The first thing I notice was that his hands were exactly like Shanes. I have know Idea how somebody would think a baby isn't a baby until 24 weeks. He was perfect baby. Everything formed except his organs. I got to hold him while he still had a heart beat. I wish Shane would have been there with me but it happened so fast that it wasn't possible. I know that baby Jaxxon is with the father and what better place is there.



Momma's baby boy. I wish the trash can wasn't in the picture but he's so beautiful.


Poppy and Nonny made Jaxxon a beautiful box to be laid to rest in. He has the best even in death. I wish he would have gotten to know them.

This is his little hunting outfit. His daddy made sure he went out in style. I know this would have been his normal outfit in a few years.

12 comments:

Dawn said...

We love you and have prayed for you often the last few days. And will continue to do so.

Janice said...

You are in our thoughts and prayers. We love you!

jarcarhar said...

Sweet Ashley, you don't know me...my parents are Larry and Laura Douglas. They called me with broken hearts the day of your sweet Jaxxon's arrival and asked me to be praying for you and Shane. Our Father has kept you very fresh on my mind, and you have been lifted up often, and will be in the days and months to come. I would so love to hug your neck next time I am in good ole Woodward!

Sarah Castor said...

I love you guys and my bible study group has been praying for you guys the past few weeks. We will also continue to do so!

Kara said...

We love you! Your faith is amazing and inspiring! Still praying for you!

Michelle said...

Ashley & Shane what faith you both have! My prayer for you both is that God will keep His healing hands on you and keep proving to you that He does love you. Our thoughts are with you often and I am here when you need me.

Becky said...

Ashley, you and Shane are so precious and your amazing faith is inspiring. We're holding you close in prayer and never forget how much your are loved!

Go For It! said...

Shane and Ashley... you have been through some difficult days and there will be more. We love you so much amd are so proud to see your faith not falter, but in fact become stronger. All the way home from Paden, the thought of you going home to Jaxx's room, alone, was almost more than I could bare... my heart ached for you both. As bad as this has been, and still is, it is good to see the two of you moving on, and I love it when I glipse either of you smiling.

Ash... the blog post is great. Thanks you for sharing your heart and hurts with us.

Hilary said...

Ashley and Shane, He is precious. I don't have words to tell you how sorry I am for your loss of Jaxxon. I know you will be blessed for your faith! I am praying for God's comfort and peace for you and your family.

steph64 said...

please know that you are both still in my thoughts and prayers. Jaxxon was a blessing from God. the blog is beautiful. You faith is amazing. God is in control and he does know what is best, even if it is the hardest thing for us to deal with. You are both loved.

Anonymous said...

Shane and Ashley- There are lots of things in life that we think of... dream of....pray for....This is not one of those times. The question WHY? and the pain will both grow. But this is the time that we must remember to praise God even in the storms! Norm and I share a loss like this, I promise it will get better. One day at a time, one breath at a time, one prayer at a time - God gets you through it! Just keep your chin up and one foot in front of the other and God will guide you. I pray that God comforts your heavy hearts and southes your souls. Love in christ- Kirstie and Norm

amanda said...

I'm visiting from a link at April Rose's blog.

I'm sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby boy...by the way I didn't even notice the trash can.