Thursday, February 23, 2012

3 years...

I'm not sure how I'm feeling as we approach the three year mark of Jaxxon's birthday. The past two years with nothing really to do but wait and dread for it to come I knew how I was feeling and it wasn't good. This year however with Jaxxi and planning her birthday and I got a nice little surprise Tuesday that they were placing a 3 day old baby girl in our home I have been entirely to busy or exhausted to reflect much on it. I'm sure on Sunday it will hit me pretty hard. This is the first year we haven't planned anything special and Shane will be out of town at work. :( I am planning on traveling to Woodward so that will be a nice distraction also. I know I still miss him and think about him everyday. He will forever be my baby boy and He will always be the one who made me a mom. Even though it hurts so much, I can't imagine my life with out having him apart of my story. I will get through another year and another day closer to meeting him heaven. I'll let you know how I feel after Sunday...

2 comments:

Dawn Castor said...

You have come so far in the last year. And wow! It appears that you are going to have some heavy duty days ahead of you with another baby! Praying for you all!

Chelsa said...

thinking of you. :)
jaxxi's party was so cute :)