14 months post 10 days late:)

14 months has brought on so much fun, new things, and stubbornness! :)

• You had surgery last week and you still weighed 19 lbs.
• you are wearing mostly 12 months a few 18 month shirts
• you are barely in a size 3 shoe...Tiny feet!
• you eat more than your weight in food everyday! you aren't very picky yet but you still aren't crazy about sweets.
• You are completely off the bottle have been since 13 months.
• you drink you sippy cup upside down :)
• you like juice way better than milk.
• You still take 2 naps most days, sleep mostly threw the night
• you almost refused to be fed, You want to do it all by yourself!
• You are into everything, we do not stop till bedtime. You can climb on the tables and think you are so funny!
• you have learned how to get off of the furniture.
• New words you say (one, bye-bye, no, hello, night night, yay)
• You shake your head no
• You still aren't walking, but taken a few steps, stood up from the ground unassisted, and our letting go of the table for longer periods of time.
• You need hair to go to sleep, or when your scared. I find that hair is an odd comfort thing but it's what you like so we go with it. :)
• You have had tubes, and your lazy eyes corrected. You did great for both surgeries!

I'm really loving this stage in that she can communicate with us a little bit more. But last night She was getting in to stuff when I put her to bed and this morning as soon as her feet touched the ground she was already getting into things she's not suppose to! I'm learning a new kind of patience! I know this stage will fly by and I'll be wishing I could go back to these moments soon. So I just try and remember that when I want to rip my hair out b/c she has eaten a piece of dog food for the 3rd time in an hour!!

We had court yesterday and man is it stressful, we are nearing the end of all this hopefully for real this time I thought I was almost there two other times. We have a jury trial coming up so I don't think there's much after that. There some things I'm slightly concerned about so if you can remember us in prayer I would appreciate it!

Reflecting

I remember Easter 2009 being so painful. It was the first holiday after losing Jaxx. I was in the thick of my grief. Completely broken. I smiled and went through the motions but every normal thing I did felt like picking off the scab that was trying to heal my heart. Looking back now I'm not sure how I even got through those first months and even year. But I'm thankful for God, friends and family who stuck it out with me.

As I was sitting in church this morning passing back and forth this beautiful baby girl who was fighting sleep. I know how truly blessed I am, and being that broken shell of a person was God teaching me, how to appreciate all the abundance he was about to shower into my life.

I love both of my children with all my heart. Sometimes I look at Jaxxi and wish that she could have her older brother here to help her put eggs in her basket or hold her hands while she walks. I can get wrapped in the moment and go to place where I'm sad not that she's doing all the things a healthy one year old should. Just that we didn't get to experience every milestone with him. But he's getting to celebrate with the king of kings!

So Easter 2012 was a much happier day. Day full of laughter and hope. Thankful that God arose!!!


Ps I did not take one single picture of Jaxxi on her first Easter (with us) but there's always next year!