Happy 2nd Birthday!

I can't believe it has already been two years! Aunt Ash and uncle Nane love you so much! You are so snuggly and cute! I can't wait to see you continue to grow and learn!

You and Shane hanging out.

Just a couple of days old.

First Birthday, getting messy :)

In Sawyer's bed at the hospital.

Vistors from Woodward!

Tish decided to come to Paden for a few days and let the kids swim. So Shane and I had fun filled weekend with our Niece and Nephews! We had a ton of fun. I have to admit we were glad to have our bed back to ourselves and so was Huck! I had one jealous puppy. :)

Jarrett came down on Saturday after his birthday party. We have never had him that long by his self. I don't know if he had fun, but we enjoyed spending time with just him! We were watching Toy Story and he was just relaxing.

Father's day was Sunday so we all went out to the cemetery to visit our boy.

On Tuesday evening we decided to have a little weeny roast at Tommy and Sandy's.

Me and Bree on our turn :)

Shane relaxing in the pool!

Me and Jare Bear!

Jare is a water bug. If he could learn to keep his mouth closed I think he would just take off swimming on his own. He was jumping off the ladder to me, so Shane decided we should just throw him to each other. Well he loved it we had to do it about 20 more times . :)

The Red Blur is Jarrett!

Bree and Kennedy.

On Wed. Bree went to work with me for story time and afterwards we ran to the park for a little bit. She had fun going down the slides and running around before it got to hot! Then me and Tish and Bree ran to Mounds to get our hair cut. Bree got hers chopped off it is sooo cute. I didn't take a pic b/c I was getting mine done after she got hers cut.

Happy Father's Day!

I just want to say Happy Father's day to all the dad's in my life! I can't believe it's already this time of year again! Happy Father's day to my hubby! Even though Jaxx isn't here with us physically I can see he's left a mark on your heart. I love how your so protective of him. It warms my heart to know you love him so. I know one day you will be the best dad of children on earth any child could ask for!

My sweet boys! :)

Happy Father's day Dad! I love you with all my heart and pray we have many more of these days together!

Dawn, Dad and me 2008

Happy Father's day Brett! Glad that your in my life, and thankful that you have helped Shane be the dad he is today!

This pic is really old, but it was the only one I could find with us in it :)

What Might have been...

I try not to think about what might have been,
Cus that was then and we have taken different roads.
We can't go back again, there's no use giving in.
And there's no way to know, what might have been.

Well as Jaxxon due date approaches it has reminded me of the loss of him. It's weird to think that he would almost one or one years old by now... I wonder who he would have been. Then I remember he's exactly who God wanted him to be. With us for 22 weeks. No more, No less. I have truly felt the release of so much anger. I'm daily letting God heal. That's kinda been the reoccurring theme in my life right now let go and let God heal. I have been hoping again. Yes, it scares me to death that I may never get pregnant again. That we may never have children. I just feel like God is not going to let that happen. If he does he will be the same God even then. I was reading a book called Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. There was a line in the book that read something like this Hope hurts, because if you start to hope and it doesn't happen you felt like you have failed yet again. I'm choosing hope with the only condition that God's will be done in my life. It's not like I have ANY control any way. So why not cast my cares upon Jesus! I want to leave you with Lyrics to a song that touches my heart every time I hear it!

Before the Morning

Josh Wilson

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
yeah, yeah,
before the morning,
yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning
before the morning, yeah, yeah
before the morning

an accident and a weekend :)

Well my wonderful and graceful husband was doing some work to our land. burning brush and and breaking limbs. One piece of tree limb came back and gave him this little beauty! He walked in the door with it covered, and said we need to go to the ER. I thought he had just got dehydrated or something then he moved his shirt, and there was blood everywhere. I freaked b/c I'm not the best in these types of situations. So we rushed to the hospital and he got three stitches.


Brandy, Tyrel, and Graydon came for a visit and our other friends Darrin and Misty invited us for a Saturday of fun at the river!

This with me enjoying putting my feet in the sand. It's a free pedicure! :)

This is Shane cooling off after smoking a bunch of meat. Graydon is telling his daddy all about it.

This is Shane walking down by the river to go swimming.

After we were all stuffed we decided to play some Volleyball it was fun! I'm not so great at it, but I love to play anyway. :)

I wish I would have got a pic of me and Brandy but we were busy taking the pics. We made a few funny memories that involved me driving, OK trying to drive the rhino! Lets just say there was bug splatter and yelling the word TREE! We had a great weekend and great company and glad they came for a visit. Maybe next time they come we will have more then one open room. ;)

Librarians Do Gaga

Thought this was funny! librarians are cool :)

Memorial Day weekend!

We had a great time at the lake. We are sooo tired, sore and a little red :) but it was worth it b/c it was so much fun! We loved the company and enjoyed the playing. Patty and Wesley my great aunt and uncle have a place at Grand lake they have had since I was little and we use to go every single weekend. Then life happened and we haven't got to go very much. Anyway they remodeled their house and it was just finished this week. So they were moving back in and we got to be the first people to stay at the new house! :)




Well since we cut Huck's hair to pretty much nothing we went and got him a new shirt so he wouldn't sunburn :) He looked pretty cute in it!

We weren't sure how Huck would do in the water, but he actually swam really good. Straight to the dock Ha! He's not a fan of water. so we put him on this little raft and he just stood there like are you really making me stay on this dumb thing LOL!

This is Huckababy on the boat. He did so good I was amazed at how well he did. He's not a people person so he has pretty much slept none stop since we got back, people make him really nervous!

This is my cousin Kelsey, and her friend Lindsay. They were doing stunts on the tube! It looks like they are surfing... they didn't stay up long! The water was ROUGH!

Patty and my cousin Leslie soaking up some sun!

Me and Shane on the wave runner. Let me tell you these things make you SORE. I didn't know that when I was younger it didn't bother me at all, but I could barely lift up a cup after we got off that thing! Shane was nice and we only dumped over twice :) It was a lot of fun but the seat was really slickery so I almost slid off the back a million times! at one point we hit a really high way and some how managed to head butt each other. We could barely stop laughing to hang on so we wouldn't get dumped over. We had a great time!

This my hunk of a husband after playing out on the water!

There he is again!

It was a blast and can't wait to do it again soon! They are working on putting a pool in also so I'll definitely be back to check that out :)