I usually want to get all the decorations out as soon as Thanksgiving is over. I have told Shane many of times lets go get our Christmas stuff out of storage. It still hasn't happened and honestly I just don't want to. I know the ornament we bought last year that says expectant parents in 2009 will find me. That we will have another year with only two stockings to hang. That I have empty arms while watching Shane set up the tree. It's just not happening for me this year. I have tried to get in the spirit, we are going to look at Christmas lights in Tulsa on Friday and then the Christmas train on Sunday. So maybe that will help. This whole season is so geared towards children and families that it's just hard to be a spectator and not participating. Maybe Christmas 2010 we will have our miracle baby. Sorry the last two post have kinda been downers but stuff. This blog is from my heart and that's what it's like to lose a baby. It's one up and down after the other. I'm looking forward to the New Year and new hope.
On a side note I know that Christmas is not all about presents and the hub bub. I'm thankful for my savior and want to celebrate his birth. Thank you God for letting your son be born and to die on a cross for all of our sins.