Friday, January 8, 2010

10 Things that Makes Me Happy....

Ok so I'm undertaking Sarah's challenge to list ten things that make me happy! so here goes nothing!

1. Being a daughter of the King of Kings. At times I'm so mad at him I could cry, but I don't know what I would do in this life with out his help. His arms of comfort, peace beyond understanding, that he will carry me when I can no longer walk. That he's a true and loving God. If you don't know him I hope you will seek his face.

2. Gregory Shane Allen- Let me tell you I got lucky even though sometimes he drives me crazy and I want to punch his face! :) He is a provider and companion, spoils me rotten. I can pretty much talk him to anything I think we should do. He's my lover and my friend and I thank God for him everyday.

3. Family... They are interesting to say the least. On my side of the family Shane has trouble adjusting we are loud love to argue our points of few, of course mine is always right HA! We are huggers, lets just say Shane is not on the touch feely side :) I love to be around them and reminds me why I am the person I am b/c of the loving family I was brought up in. I was allowed to be myself. ( that didn't mean they wouldn't talk about me when I left... LOL) I have self confidence and self worth and I owe a lot of that for the people I was around. I have a great friendship with my Mom, super close to my sisters. I love my Daddy and I have a great Step mom Dawn! I wouldn't trade almost any of them for anything!

4. My other family...aka my in laws. I'm pretty sure from the moment I met them we kinda of clicked. I think they are part of the reason I put of with Shane J/K ...:) They are great people who have taking me in as their own. I'm pretty sure I drive Brenda crazy at times. She is more of a sees all the good in people I tend to think some ppl have an agenda. So sometimes she makes me think about the way I view ppl...but only sometimes :)! It's great to have ppl you can cry with at the worst times in your life and the same to ppl to laugh with at the most joyous times in your life. I miss living by you guys. I know you miss living by us ;)

6. My niece and nephews... Oh the joys of being able to do what you want with them and when your tired send them home :) They are so fun to be around and I love them all so much. They keep life interesting. I love when Bree needs to see HER Ash! and Brother Bears sweet cuddling. They are growing up WAY to fast. I remember when Alec and Derrick were little and how we would fight over who got to hold them as babies and who got to pick out what they would wear for the day. I miss those days! I have been blessed with beautiful, talented loving children to be apart of my life. I always tell Alec when he's a big baseball star he has to buy me a house! Derrick will probably grow up and be a scientist or something! ;)

7. My friends... I have been blessed with awesome friendships in my life. Most of them are family that double as friends but hey they can't get rid 0f me that way :) My sisters Kass, Heather and Tish have all been there for me when I needed them most and I can tell anything to and...I DO!!!! Tish probably wonders what she got herself into most of the time. I was raised with Heather and Kass so they know how weird we are HA! My cousins Jen, Sarah, Lacy Thanks for being their girlies. I have other really great friends who have prayed and been there for me! I couldn't do it with out you guys!


8. My Dogie... I know I have said this before but I never liked dogs... well it turns out I still don't... I do love my sweet dog Huck though. He is a great cuddle bug and me and Shane laugh at all the things he does. When I come home from work or even just walking out to the car he is so happy to see me :) he gets his paws and his head going crazy. It's the cutest thing. It's nice to feel needed and he definitely needs me :)


9. Being a mother... Even though at times it brings me great pain. I still love being Jaxxon Shane mommy. I love the 5 months I had with him alive and growing in my tummy. I love remembering the sound of his heartbeat. I love looking at my ultrasound pictures. I love remembering all the dreams I had for him. I love the joy he brought to our lives. I love him and he makes me happy. :)


10. Last but not least sugar and all things sugary haha... I know this is kinda trivial but I'm fixing to be on a pretty strict no sugar diet and I'm sure I will miss all things made of sugar :)

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Hard to Understand...

I learned of another family who lost a precious baby to early. There is nothing that has tested my faith more than this single event in my life. It's so hard to understand why a loving God would take away or not even allow couples to have baby that would take care of it, and love and nurture it. Then give babies to crack addicts, abusers, molester, and people who just won't take care of their children. Honestly I don't even know why some women like the Duggars for instance can have 19... Why wouldn't He just spread the wealth and just give us one! I know that he truly is loving, that this is just the plan for my life, and that is the plan He has for their lives. I just really can't wrap my brain around it!!!

Also a 16 yr. old foreign exchange student that was staying with my Aunt and Uncle decided to end her life on Sunday night. I don't know what the one thing in peoples life that makes them decide that dying would be better than living. I just want to remind people to take time for the people around them. Ask them how their doing and actually listen to their reply. I not saying that it would have changed anything in this situation. It made me think if she would have just opened up could this have been avoided?

So I have a lot on my mind once again and it just closer and closer to Jaxxon 1st birthday. I'm determined to make this year one of the best ones yet! Trying to grieve purposely and draw closer to God and maybe he will give me some insight in to so many of my questions. To be honest I have just been down right mad! I just can't keep doing this... Being mad isn't solving anything, so maybe trying to be content and go with the flow, see what God has in store for us this year will help ease my mind and give me some of my true joy back.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

NYE 2009!

This New Year Andy and Lacy got us a hotel for Christmas, we were so excited to go! We had a great time and I love to watch people and there were plenty of interesting to look at! decided not to take pics of them but I really wanted to!




My new hair on the way to OKC. Shane's still not use to it. I love it though...
Me and Lacy!
Shane being Shane!

Andy and Lacy after our bellies got stuffed on Abuelos!!








Our Hotel from the 4th floor :)




I really need on of those camera's you can see yourself as your taking them! lol






Me and Lacy it was freeeeezzzzinnnngggg!!!!








The four of us Shane, Me, Lacy and Andy! Last pic of '09



Here in Oklahoma we raise the ball not drop it! :)


Fireworks that we actually got to see b/c we had to run away from a group of retarded kids beating each other up!



Things I forgot my camera for we took a limo ride compliments of the hotel. We walked around down town. Then we took a horse drawn carriage ride back to our hotel then we got all bundle up for the fireworks and to watch the ball rise. It was so much fun we may do it again next year!

A Father's Christmas!

We had our last and final Christmas at my Dad's on Sunday... I was by this point filled to the brim with all my family... if you catch my drift :). I still love them though! we had a great day playing games sorry for the lack of pics none of us got out of jammies all day so I didn't get the camera out Ha!

Kassie and her OU snuggie! It felt warmer then then normal ones.

We are rich :) every year my dad comes up with some way to give us money that isn't boring this year he gave us $2 bills. people look at me weird every time I pay with one :)

Shane getting some puppy love!


my daddy watching some TV. my nephew Alec in the back ground.


Thursday, December 24, 2009

A Mothers Christmas!

Last night we had Christmas with my Mom and some Pendergrasses! There were a LOT of people there like 23 or so... I think it's a lot of fun to be around all my family just visiting and having a good time! This is Christmas two, I have one tonight, tomorrow and Saturday and Sunday! It's snowing so it looks like we are going to have a white Christmas! this rarely happens so we are excited!!!!



The Tree that's my nephew Derrick thinking he's cool!

My mom and her best friend Donna.

Me and my Grandma P she didn't know I was snapping a pic:)


Katy and Huck... They are so cute! By the way in case you were wondering Huck has had a great first Christmas :)
My sis Heather and her husband Bubba.


Katy opening her gifts...

Derrick and his new Camera and my nephew Alec waiting patiently for his turn :)



Shane and his traditional Gold Toe socks!








Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Christmas Woodward Style!

*PICTURE OVERLOAD*
Last weekend we traveled to Woodward for Christmas with the Allens. a weekend is never long enough to spend with your family but we got a lot of family time in! the pics are in order wrong but didn't really feel like fixing them.
This is Bree on the bike we got her! It has a little seat for her baby doll on the back to cute! She was so excited to see it she ran and gave Nane a great big hug... I didn't get one though :( what's up with that?!?!?!
Here is the little cutie in his new cowboy boots we go him. He got two pairs and didn't know which ones he wanted to wear more I think I changed them like 5 times :)


This pic is kinda of blurry but this is the new wedding band my honey got me for Christmas it's Sapphire and diamond I have always wanted a Sapphire one b/c September is both of our birthdays!
Me and Tish waiting on Christmas breakfast!


Surprised him! :)
This was the best pic I could get with them in their Christmas pj's I got them!

There's brother bear posing pretty.


Shane and his mommy!
Shane showing off how convenient it is to high five in Tisha snuggie!lol


Me, Bree and Huck waiting on Christmas breakfast!
Brett and Brenda, the two who started it all :)

Brenda cooking for us :)



Uncle Nane and Bree!








Better Late Than Never!

Back at Thanksgiving Shane's Pa got a bulldozer and went to work on our house pad :) These are just some pics of all the dirt it's hard to tell what it's really going to look like but wanted to document it :)




The first pic is actually me Bree and Huck on our way to tree trimming!


Shane and Brett talking about getting it just right and we need to do!



Bree and Brenda waiting on the four wheeler we couldn't keep Bree off of it!