Thursday, March 5, 2009

One WeekI

I can't believe it's been a week since I met you. My sweet baby.You woke momma up early b/c your stubborn like your daddy, and you know how much I hate mornings. But you wanted to make your debut early. I can't believe I never got to see your eyes or see you smile. I had dreamed so much for you. You made me and your daddy so happy. You brought a joy to our life that only a new life can. You brought us together. I don't know what your purpose was to be here such a short time. I have had thoughts like would have it been better to never know you at all. Then I just have to think about your sweet little face and know there's nothing in this world I ever wanted to see more. I can't wait to see God's work being done through your life Jaxxon Shane Allen.

I'm so broken and empty with out you in my arms. The only thing that has kept me going is knowing that your where we all long to be. You are so loved baby boy. Your Nana Trish wanted to hold you and rock you and love you all pieces. Your Papa Tom and Grandma Dawn wanted to take you to baseball games and watch you grow. Your Nonny and Poppy wanted to do so much for you. The best thing is we all will carry you around with us and I think your little life has made an impact on all of us. We will never be the same. You have made me stronger, in my relationships, in my faith, emotionally. I will never forget you I can't wait til I see your sweet face again. Thank you for letting us know you baby boy.


Brandy Lee said...

And the weeks will continue to pass, each one easing your pain little by little. I am so blessed to have had that time with Jaxx. Thank you for sharing your sweet baby boy with our family, especially GW. For "Bom Bom" was the buddy we prayed for for our baby. We just thought that would have been GW. God had different plans. Know that Jaxx is in the arms of our Lord.

Sarah said...

I am so thankful that I got to see your perfect little baby boy. I continue to cry that we didn't get to watch him grow into the ornery son you both deserve, and I continue to pray and be thankful knowing that we will see Jax again. I am so proud of you Dash, and I admire your strength and your unwavering faith through all of this.